Picture of the Day

I'm obsessed with Flickr, I've decided. Today I was looking through some random persons portfolio and found this. I love how creative people get.

Everything . . .

It's not like I couldn't have ever thought of this before, but it's interesting and I liked it. I'm hoping to get really creative with my photo comm assignment but I'm not sure what to do yet. It is supposed to be a portfolio of 3 or more images that relate to each other. Now, I could either challenge myself or just take a few usual portraits and be done... ...although this could quite possibly be very fun..

Cuteness

One of the many engagement pictures I took of my sister and Kyle.

Expectations

Awhile back I had a dream that my ex-boyfriend, Matt, kept telling me that I couldn't have high expectations. "You just can't have these expectations Angelica"..he'd tell me "..just don't have expectations". Now, I fully agree with that and then completely don't. I think that I've gotten morals and expectations entirely mixed up.

moral

of, pertaining to, or concerned with the principles or rules of right conduct or the distinction between right and wrong; ethical: moral attitudes.

expressing or conveying truths or counsel as to right conduct, as a speaker or a literary work; moralizing: a moral novel.

expectation

.	the act or the state of expecting: to wait in expectation.

the act or state of looking forward or anticipating.

an expectant mental attitude: a high pitch of expectation.

Keeping within my morals and then expecting everyone else to be along the same lines as I am is two different subjects at hand. I've gotten myself so mixed up with guys because I'd expect so much greatness out of them... although this is not such a bad thing, it's creating an unrealistic platform for them to reach. I can't help it, but it's entirely unfair. In the end the result of it all is just a broken hearted me..

So today, taking it into a different context...it was my Birthday. I expected nothing. Past birthdays have been filled with unsatisfying party's, lame gifts, and a step father unexpectedly leaving the house. I expect it to be so great and for everything to go my way. It is so controlled that I don't want anything to go wrong, but instead it seems like everything goes haywire.

Today? Such a great day. I let it flow..I let it be. I didn't really care about anything. Anything that was thrown my way was good. I loved it. I really appreciated my roommies today, and this week. I think that they just really care. I don't think they'll ever understand how much they mean to me and how much simple streamers and a gluten-free cake makes me feel like a million bucks. Friendship has never been so meaningful until now.

sooooo depressed

Some days it hits you *BAM* I'm not normal, I don't have things under control, I don't know what to do. Sometimes I just get in this stuck mode. I freak out about whats going on in my life and I can't seem to get ahead. There's too much to think about and accomplish that I'm just ready to throw in the towel and be done. I'm really sick of that. I want to know that I have things figured out and I'm ready to face everything. I'm going to fight this. I'm not going to just let my body fall apart and not do anything about it. I guess I have to be willing to do a thousand "trial & errors" to figure out what's up.

For now I just need to keep my head up, enjoy what's going on in my life.