Saturday, December 13, 2008
Home
I've finally arrived! The semester is through and I'm ready to relax.. well sort of. I'll be going up every Saturday to the salon in Goshen to work and going to Atz's once or so a week. Regardless, its good to be home with my mind off of school. I've missed home. I've missed the friends I haven't been able to spend enough time with over the last few months.. I can't wait to catch up!
Friday, November 28, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Barbie Doll Culture
Flipping through a magazine I see images loading the pages selling advertisements to women. They offer suggestive slogans saying much more than what the product in itself is. What are these advertisements really saying? “Fight Against Aging”, “Be Delicious”, or “Discover the Power...” selling products that will fix the average women into becoming “perfect”. Society has redefined the word “feminine” or “beautiful”, turning these words into sexual descriptions that minimize the powerful idea of a woman. America has created a “barbie doll” culture.
Beginning in childhood, girls are surrounded by various influences. The family is a powerful and important tool in a young girl’s life that usually corrects any wrong ideas she may have. On the other side, the family can also damage a girl’s perspective by planting misconceptions, eventually misleading her with false “truths”. “Feelings of personal worth are influenced by performances, abilities, appearance, and the judgments of significant others” (Elder, G.,1968). Many times a young girl simply needs the role of a strong, confident woman to show her she can become an individual that the media has not yet created. “Past and present relationships help form their self identity” (Elder, G.,1968). If girls have that example, they may visualize themselves in that place.
Growing up, a young girl is continually questioning her identity. It is a time of unusual change and major decision that most girls cannot firmly grasp (Rosenberg, M.,1965). “The problem of the adolescent girl in working out her adult femininity involves conscious and unconscious questions about what sort of person she should be, which characteristics would make her desirable and successful, which goals are open to her and which closed” (Allen & Unwin, 1975). Girls come head to head with their self worth versus the “barbie doll” the media is portraying. It is a contradicting scene that seems to be unavoidable. The barbie doll symbolically became an image that young girls were wanting to become. “Ironically, the dimensions that Barbie would not even be anatomically possible on humans” (Barbie's Effects on American Suburban Culture. year unknown). Although this impossibility is well known, a girls mind is blinded because she is attempting to fit into a mold. “For here is a young person caught up in a biological and social process, poised between childhood and becoming an adult...” (Allen & Unwin, 1975) Adolescence is a challenging and awkward stage in life, full of uncertainty. “Society does not have a clear set of expectations for the adolescent. In some ways he is treated as a child, in other ways as an adult” (Morris Rosenburg, 1965). Teens are striving for an untouchable image because they have not pinpointed the true identity they should fulfill.
The average American sees 3,000 ads per day and will spend three years of their life watching commercials (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). Advertising is the foundation of mass media; their goal is to sell (images, products, success, normalcy...) and try to tell us who we are and who we should be. “It tells us as women that what is most important is how we look. They wrap our minds around the concept of what beauty is...they make us feel ashamed and guilty if we fail” (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). They make us think that if we just try enough we can look like the “ideal image”, they convince us to push ourselves until we reach a basically unattainable goal. The advertising agency went from a $20 billion profit in 1979 to a $180 billion profit in 1999; this is just 20 years for a 160 billion dollar jump (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). These numbers reflect the example of how girls have become engulfed in consumerism today.
Pornography is a harsh word that has become “the blueprint in which we are represented in this culture” (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002), an idea that is stuck to ads created everyday. It has simmered down to mainstream images that make us oblivious of the discriminating picture portrayed. We need to take a step back and deconstruct the ideology to understand what is really within the image. Women’s bodies are being abused to sell a commodity. Many of these ads are distorting our views on our sexuality and are passive, as well as misused. Advertisements create a world where women are objects instead of subjects.
Girls sacrifice their true inner selves from their outer selves so that they adapt to the culture around them. Eighty percent of women claim to feel inadequate as a woman (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002), not feeling entirely up to status with the rest of the perfect world. Girls are in fact weighing their self esteem, something that has become a cultural norm. They have become an object of sex, vanity, and vulnerability that is covering the pages of ads. Young girls, teenage girls, and older women are trying to become a constructed image, an image that only computers and a team of specialists could create with time and money. “It is painful to imagine that a girl may experience so much confusion and anxiety over shaping a positive identity that she inhibits her own intellectual and personal interests” (Allen & Unwin, 1975). It is despairing that girls are deteriorating their own inner personality trading it for something so fake and unrealistic. The adolescents have to brought to the idea that being genuine, natural, and realistic is more than imperative in her life.
A woman’s struggle with body image is almost inevitable. One in five girls have eating disorders, usually being anorexic or bulemic (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). Girls between the ages of 10-12 report that they really are afraid of being fat when they grow up (Beyond Killing Us Softly, 2000). This really means that girls are really afraid of growing and developing as a woman . Adolescent girls need to come to terms that self acceptance of their own body is not defeat. In our society we haven’t been seen beautiful in our strength. The fact is that everyone’s body makes sense on their own terms; it isn’t until we realize this will we succeed.
Men do not face the same challenges that women do. They don’t live in a world where their bodies are judged and consistently talked about in embarrassing and degrading ways. Men’s stereotypes are not as related to the body and are not as personal (Killing Us Softly, 2002). There is an idea that is called “..patriarchy, the sociopolitical system characterized by systemic male privilege and power” (Beauty Politics and Patriarchy. 2001). This type of society insists that women produce an impossible, but ideal image. Ultimately, it’s hard for men to see past the barbie depiction bombarding their minds and distorts the value of a normal, beautiful women. In every day life, this becomes a problem in their expectations of what a girlfriend or wife should normally look like. At this point, both sexes are disappointed by an idea that does not even exist.
The competitive and high standard of beauty stimulates resentful feelings amidst the women of our culture. “..beauty myths foster competition, divisiveness, and distrust..” (Beauty Politics and Patriarchy. 2001). The tension that is brought to the table from our society disturbs the unity that women power contains. The mindset that one female is more beautiful or better in the “man world” robs the friendship that two females can have. Barriers are too easily made when a goal to be the best is the only thing in sight.
As a society America needs to change, not only the ads, but also attitudes that run so deep in our culture. Authentic and freely chosen lives are necessary. Women need to begin seeing the realistic side to beauty. She needs to see what it really looks like without the makeup, touch-ups, lighting, surgery; without the barbie standard. Women need to see that “amazing” isn’t packaged into one type. It is important that the artificial image of the right look isn’t found, but what her own look truly is. Examining reality is a great anecdote. Are women going to let corporations define who and what they are? Corporations shouldn’t be able to shove the female gender into a tiny little cage. “When our bodies and identities are in tune, they reflect each other. This beautiful synchronicity throws the world a much needed curve. It hums with an energy that affects everything and everyone it touches. It changes the culture” (Body Outlaws, 2000).
Bibliography
Elder, G. (1968). Adolescent Socialization and Personality Development. US: Rand Mcnally & Co.
Rosenberg, M. (1965). SOCIETY AND THE ADOLESCENT SELF-IMAGE. Princeton: Princeton University Press.
Unknown. (2000). Body Outlaws: Young Women Write About Body Image and Identity. Emeryville: Seal Press.
(1975). Adolescence: The crises of adjustment. London: Allen & Unwin.
Unknown, U. (Director). (2000). Beyond Killing Us Softly: The Strength to Resist [Documentary]. USA: Cambridge Documentary Films, Inc..
Unknown, U. (Director). (2002). Killing Us Softly 3: Advertising's Image of Women [Documentary]. USA: Media Education Foundation.
Beauty Politics and Patriarchy: The Impact on Women's Lives. (2001). In Encyclopedia of Women and Gender: Sex Similarities and Differences and the Impact of Society on Gender. Oxford: Elsevier Science & Technology. Retrieved October 24, 2008, from http://www.credoreference.com/entry/8020045
Barbie's Effects on American Suburban Culture. (year unknown).The Barbie Doll as an Artifact of Suburbia. http://www.otal.umd.edu/~vg/mssp96/ms07/cult.htm
Beginning in childhood, girls are surrounded by various influences. The family is a powerful and important tool in a young girl’s life that usually corrects any wrong ideas she may have. On the other side, the family can also damage a girl’s perspective by planting misconceptions, eventually misleading her with false “truths”. “Feelings of personal worth are influenced by performances, abilities, appearance, and the judgments of significant others” (Elder, G.,1968). Many times a young girl simply needs the role of a strong, confident woman to show her she can become an individual that the media has not yet created. “Past and present relationships help form their self identity” (Elder, G.,1968). If girls have that example, they may visualize themselves in that place.
Growing up, a young girl is continually questioning her identity. It is a time of unusual change and major decision that most girls cannot firmly grasp (Rosenberg, M.,1965). “The problem of the adolescent girl in working out her adult femininity involves conscious and unconscious questions about what sort of person she should be, which characteristics would make her desirable and successful, which goals are open to her and which closed” (Allen & Unwin, 1975). Girls come head to head with their self worth versus the “barbie doll” the media is portraying. It is a contradicting scene that seems to be unavoidable. The barbie doll symbolically became an image that young girls were wanting to become. “Ironically, the dimensions that Barbie would not even be anatomically possible on humans” (Barbie's Effects on American Suburban Culture. year unknown). Although this impossibility is well known, a girls mind is blinded because she is attempting to fit into a mold. “For here is a young person caught up in a biological and social process, poised between childhood and becoming an adult...” (Allen & Unwin, 1975) Adolescence is a challenging and awkward stage in life, full of uncertainty. “Society does not have a clear set of expectations for the adolescent. In some ways he is treated as a child, in other ways as an adult” (Morris Rosenburg, 1965). Teens are striving for an untouchable image because they have not pinpointed the true identity they should fulfill.
The average American sees 3,000 ads per day and will spend three years of their life watching commercials (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). Advertising is the foundation of mass media; their goal is to sell (images, products, success, normalcy...) and try to tell us who we are and who we should be. “It tells us as women that what is most important is how we look. They wrap our minds around the concept of what beauty is...they make us feel ashamed and guilty if we fail” (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). They make us think that if we just try enough we can look like the “ideal image”, they convince us to push ourselves until we reach a basically unattainable goal. The advertising agency went from a $20 billion profit in 1979 to a $180 billion profit in 1999; this is just 20 years for a 160 billion dollar jump (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). These numbers reflect the example of how girls have become engulfed in consumerism today.
Pornography is a harsh word that has become “the blueprint in which we are represented in this culture” (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002), an idea that is stuck to ads created everyday. It has simmered down to mainstream images that make us oblivious of the discriminating picture portrayed. We need to take a step back and deconstruct the ideology to understand what is really within the image. Women’s bodies are being abused to sell a commodity. Many of these ads are distorting our views on our sexuality and are passive, as well as misused. Advertisements create a world where women are objects instead of subjects.
Girls sacrifice their true inner selves from their outer selves so that they adapt to the culture around them. Eighty percent of women claim to feel inadequate as a woman (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002), not feeling entirely up to status with the rest of the perfect world. Girls are in fact weighing their self esteem, something that has become a cultural norm. They have become an object of sex, vanity, and vulnerability that is covering the pages of ads. Young girls, teenage girls, and older women are trying to become a constructed image, an image that only computers and a team of specialists could create with time and money. “It is painful to imagine that a girl may experience so much confusion and anxiety over shaping a positive identity that she inhibits her own intellectual and personal interests” (Allen & Unwin, 1975). It is despairing that girls are deteriorating their own inner personality trading it for something so fake and unrealistic. The adolescents have to brought to the idea that being genuine, natural, and realistic is more than imperative in her life.
A woman’s struggle with body image is almost inevitable. One in five girls have eating disorders, usually being anorexic or bulemic (Killing Us Softly 3, 2002). Girls between the ages of 10-12 report that they really are afraid of being fat when they grow up (Beyond Killing Us Softly, 2000). This really means that girls are really afraid of growing and developing as a woman . Adolescent girls need to come to terms that self acceptance of their own body is not defeat. In our society we haven’t been seen beautiful in our strength. The fact is that everyone’s body makes sense on their own terms; it isn’t until we realize this will we succeed.
Men do not face the same challenges that women do. They don’t live in a world where their bodies are judged and consistently talked about in embarrassing and degrading ways. Men’s stereotypes are not as related to the body and are not as personal (Killing Us Softly, 2002). There is an idea that is called “..patriarchy, the sociopolitical system characterized by systemic male privilege and power” (Beauty Politics and Patriarchy. 2001). This type of society insists that women produce an impossible, but ideal image. Ultimately, it’s hard for men to see past the barbie depiction bombarding their minds and distorts the value of a normal, beautiful women. In every day life, this becomes a problem in their expectations of what a girlfriend or wife should normally look like. At this point, both sexes are disappointed by an idea that does not even exist.
The competitive and high standard of beauty stimulates resentful feelings amidst the women of our culture. “..beauty myths foster competition, divisiveness, and distrust..” (Beauty Politics and Patriarchy. 2001). The tension that is brought to the table from our society disturbs the unity that women power contains. The mindset that one female is more beautiful or better in the “man world” robs the friendship that two females can have. Barriers are too easily made when a goal to be the best is the only thing in sight.
As a society America needs to change, not only the ads, but also attitudes that run so deep in our culture. Authentic and freely chosen lives are necessary. Women need to begin seeing the realistic side to beauty. She needs to see what it really looks like without the makeup, touch-ups, lighting, surgery; without the barbie standard. Women need to see that “amazing” isn’t packaged into one type. It is important that the artificial image of the right look isn’t found, but what her own look truly is. Examining reality is a great anecdote. Are women going to let corporations define who and what they are? Corporations shouldn’t be able to shove the female gender into a tiny little cage. “When our bodies and identities are in tune, they reflect each other. This beautiful synchronicity throws the world a much needed curve. It hums with an energy that affects everything and everyone it touches. It changes the culture” (Body Outlaws, 2000).
Bibliography
Elder, G. (1968). Adolescent Socialization and Personality Development. US: Rand Mcnally & Co.
Rosenberg, M. (1965). SOCIETY AND THE ADOLESCENT SELF-IMAGE. Princeton: Princeton University Press.
Unknown. (2000). Body Outlaws: Young Women Write About Body Image and Identity. Emeryville: Seal Press.
(1975). Adolescence: The crises of adjustment. London: Allen & Unwin.
Unknown, U. (Director). (2000). Beyond Killing Us Softly: The Strength to Resist [Documentary]. USA: Cambridge Documentary Films, Inc..
Unknown, U. (Director). (2002). Killing Us Softly 3: Advertising's Image of Women [Documentary]. USA: Media Education Foundation.
Beauty Politics and Patriarchy: The Impact on Women's Lives. (2001). In Encyclopedia of Women and Gender: Sex Similarities and Differences and the Impact of Society on Gender. Oxford: Elsevier Science & Technology. Retrieved October 24, 2008, from http://www.credoreference.com/entry/8020045
Barbie's Effects on American Suburban Culture. (year unknown).The Barbie Doll as an Artifact of Suburbia. http://www.otal.umd.edu/~vg/mssp96/ms07/cult.htm
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Halloween
For Halloween four of us girls were "Jazzercisers " inspired by the youtube video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGOO8ZhWFR4
definitely a must see. lol.
This video is a video of our routine we put together while we were waiting for the Halloween party to start...
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Pumpkin Carving Contest
Summer and I carved a pumpkin for a contest and won "most creative"
..although we stayed up till four in the morning to do it, it was worth it : )
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Silent Weekend
Silent weekend was something else. I left Goshen around 1 and ended up in Ohio around 8ish. The four of us (all from ASL) found the campsite, almost getting lost. The goal of the weekend: not to talk, but to improve on our signing. We stepped out of the car and from that moment forward we couldn't speak.
When we registered, the lady who helped us was named Nan. She was so expressive when she was signing, I was sure she was deaf (come to find out later that weekend, she definitely wasn't). We each got buttons with our names on them, a paper with questions to ask each other (an icebreaker at most), and a silent weekend pocket knife : )
The hardest part of the weekend?: Putting up the tent, in the dark, communicating with only sign language. Hm. That was rough...and it was freezing cold. We all tried to avoid this problem by leaving early, but our attempts failed.
The next day me and the group of girls I came with decided we would go to the pumpkin festival nearby. The rules of the weekend were that we couldn't speak, on and off camp. This meant, that even though everyone else around us at the festival wasn't deaf or wasn't apart of our "Silent Weekend", we still had to respect the rules. Ridiculous as this seemed, it was all apart of the weekend.
We each had a card to carry around with us that day to explain our mission and the reason why we couldn't speak; some understood, but most didn't. People would still "mouth" words to us or talk really loud, thinking that we were deaf. My friends and I would just laugh about it, kind of feeling bad that we were putting people in that situation.
..this guy said "are you trying to get a picture of me?"I just smiled at him and shook my head yes like I was a little kid.
This pumpkin was enormous.
Everything at the festival was covered in pumpkin. "Pumpkin Hamburger"-"Pumpkin Ice Cream"-"Pumpkin Pie"-"Pumpkin Soup"
The rest of the weekend we played some games with each other on the camp site and ate meals together. It was such a good time to expound on my ASL vocabulary. Everyone was so patient with me, teaching me new words and repeating themselves a half-a-dozen times. It was just one of those awkward places you put yourself in to improve.
For me, I improved on not only ASL, but I also proved to myself that I can actually go a whole weekend without talking. Definitely a record breaking moment in my opinion.
Friday, October 10, 2008
...There has been so much happening ever since I got here and I've really had a lot of fun with it so far.
I'm in ASL club. I'm the secretary, so I take notes during our club meetings and then I send out emails about events. I'm also the DMAC person, which means I help communicate with Mary Schmidt (the representative of the deaf community) if I need to inform her of any events or news that we have on campus. Basically, I help with any communication that is needed within GC. ..I like doing it : ) It's fun stuff.
I'm also in intermural soccer. Our team is pretty horrible. We had our first win yesterday...but only because the other team didn't show up.
lol. it was a good win.
We also have random events and games that happen on campus that are really fun to go to. It's really surprising to see how many people are into the stuff that goes on..but it definitely makes it more fun.
...We taped paper letters to the front and back of our shirts at the volleyball game for Kate & Indy.
..We had a swing dance called "Lavender Jazz" last Saturday night. Our jazz band played, a few people sang, and we all learned how to swing dance.
...the "LSU" (Latino Student.. somethin...) put together a salsa dance. It wasn't a very good match with me and Clayton. He just got frustrated with me and swung me around. I couldn't keep up : ) (the second picture is me trying to understand the steps as he sighed under his breath lol)
Tomorrow night is the talent show & I'm singing in it. I'm SO excited!
Monday, October 6, 2008
A Poem I Wrote about Intramural Soccer (..we're on a losing streak at the moment.)
The Name of the Game
I walk out the door and cover my eyes from the blinding light.
It’s game time.
I’ve been pondering the outcome of this game the whole day.
I can feel it within my bones;
this is the game where we are taking the gold.
My team is gathered around, ready to find out their position.
We gather in for a team huddle,
putting out hands in the middle.
“Bologna & Cheese!” we all yell.
Our team is powerful and ready to defend our goal.
The whistle obnoxiously blows,
signaling for the game to begin.
The ball hits our forward's cleat as he passes it to his fellow team mate.
Pushing, shoving, yelling, name calling..
the game is getting intense.
Envy of the opponents swift moves,
we study them as they steal the ball, over and over and over.
We aren’t discouraged by the goals that are scored,
because we are determined to have a come back.
Our eyes are fierce with motivation as we look into the enemies eyes.
One goal is scored. Two goals are scored.
...Not quiet three.
The ball flies up in the air.
This is my chance to turn this game around.
I jump up as I attempt to grasp onto the ball,
but another guy approaches at the same time.
My body is violently slammed to the ground as my opponent crushes me with his powerful body.
My back aches with pain.
I lie in the grass.
My face is against the dirt as I play back what just happened.
I don’t let anyone move me.
I am done with the game of soccer today.
...for the blinding explosion of discomfort in my back speaks louder than the calling to the game.
I walk out the door and cover my eyes from the blinding light.
It’s game time.
I’ve been pondering the outcome of this game the whole day.
I can feel it within my bones;
this is the game where we are taking the gold.
My team is gathered around, ready to find out their position.
We gather in for a team huddle,
putting out hands in the middle.
“Bologna & Cheese!” we all yell.
Our team is powerful and ready to defend our goal.
The whistle obnoxiously blows,
signaling for the game to begin.
The ball hits our forward's cleat as he passes it to his fellow team mate.
Pushing, shoving, yelling, name calling..
the game is getting intense.
Envy of the opponents swift moves,
we study them as they steal the ball, over and over and over.
We aren’t discouraged by the goals that are scored,
because we are determined to have a come back.
Our eyes are fierce with motivation as we look into the enemies eyes.
One goal is scored. Two goals are scored.
...Not quiet three.
The ball flies up in the air.
This is my chance to turn this game around.
I jump up as I attempt to grasp onto the ball,
but another guy approaches at the same time.
My body is violently slammed to the ground as my opponent crushes me with his powerful body.
My back aches with pain.
I lie in the grass.
My face is against the dirt as I play back what just happened.
I don’t let anyone move me.
I am done with the game of soccer today.
...for the blinding explosion of discomfort in my back speaks louder than the calling to the game.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Service Day at Goshen.
All of our classes were canceled today for the anual "Service Day" at Goshen College. We split off into our colloquim (freshman groups) to go to different areas of the town and my group went to help "La Casa". It is a group that helps rebuild houses if they are run down to improve the community. I really had a lot of fun.. I went on the scaffold's, which I actually thought was "scalpels".. when someone corrected me later i said "oh no, i think i said that on the news" so, if you catch it, that one part is on the news..which is pretty embarrassing, lol : )
But anyways, it was a really good experience. Volunteer work is always the way to go, there is always a need and we usually don't even realize it. I'll probably try to get involved somewhere around the community at this point, it really inspired me to help out in some way.
Here's the link if you want to check it out...
http://www.wndu.com/localnews/headlines/29715139.html#
But anyways, it was a really good experience. Volunteer work is always the way to go, there is always a need and we usually don't even realize it. I'll probably try to get involved somewhere around the community at this point, it really inspired me to help out in some way.
Here's the link if you want to check it out...
http://www.wndu.com/localnews/headlines/29715139.html#
Friday, September 19, 2008
Some good old fun
Summer and I had some facebook fun and decided to copy Matthew and Danny's default picture.
...personally, I think that we were pretty successful.
...personally, I think that we were pretty successful.
Monday, September 8, 2008
"So... I have a Cosmetology License.."
So far, a lot of people have found out that I am stylist, either by word of mouth or just talking with me. Honestly, I am pretty excited. It usually comes up into conversations ((since all of us freshman are trying to figure everyone out)) and its obviously something that I say is an interest of mine. I thought about putting flyers around campus, but people talking about it seems to be way more efficient than any other type of ad. I don't want to ever push into someone's face that I can do hair, because I never want it to become an awkward situation if they don't come to me, or make it seem like I'm the bomb at doing anything in the hair category.
I've been telling everyone that I charge $10 for girls cuts and $5 for guys cuts. It seems to be a decent rate for both me and people on campus. I figure, I take about 30-45 minutes on girls cuts and about 15-30 on guys cuts--$10 an hour is a pretty sweet profit...I think.
For now I'm doing cuts in the bathroom, but in a few weeks I'll be working in the salon : ) Regardless, I'm sure I will be in the bathroom for the rest of the year making some fast cash...
Either way, its workin out pretty swell.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
ASL 101
Today was my first day of ASL (American Sign Language). I am so excited about the class. Our teacher is actually deaf herself, so it puts a whole new perspective on the class. We had two interpreters sitting in the back of the class today telling us what she was saying, but in a few days we won't have one anymore. That'll be something. She told us that we have to leave our "voices" at the door and only sign what we know or can. She said that it is just respectful in the deaf and non deaf culture to not be rude by not speaking.
I have about a five minute video that kinda shows how it was... I just turned on my camera randomly during class. She's not really talking about anything specific, so I don't expect anyone to watch the whole thing, its just kinda interesting to see how she works.
I have about a five minute video that kinda shows how it was... I just turned on my camera randomly during class. She's not really talking about anything specific, so I don't expect anyone to watch the whole thing, its just kinda interesting to see how she works.
Monday, September 1, 2008
I could get used to college..
I've officially moved in! Almost everything that I own is packed into this little dorm room.. I'm actually amazed. My roomie said to me "I was being generous Angelica ((referring to her not bringing all of hers).. but you just have a lot of clothes!" lol. She doesn't mind so much now that she knows she can borrow it all " )
...For the most part, we really get along great. I'm excited that I got stuck with a good one.
Even within these past few days, I feel like I've really learned about myself. I'm stepping out of my comfort zone, but also knowing when to hold back and disinclude myself to do the important things (calling family, spending time with God, resting). I think that the most important challenge that I will be dealing with, will for sure be disciplining myself. So far, I'd have to say that I'm not doing so bad.
I'm really excited for classes to start though, but I don't have any till Wednesday. I actually just bought two books today at the bookstore and they cost me $150!! Ridiculous.
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...For the most part, we really get along great. I'm excited that I got stuck with a good one.
Even within these past few days, I feel like I've really learned about myself. I'm stepping out of my comfort zone, but also knowing when to hold back and disinclude myself to do the important things (calling family, spending time with God, resting). I think that the most important challenge that I will be dealing with, will for sure be disciplining myself. So far, I'd have to say that I'm not doing so bad.
I'm really excited for classes to start though, but I don't have any till Wednesday. I actually just bought two books today at the bookstore and they cost me $150!! Ridiculous.
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Wow. Too much to do.
I just finished my last days at all three jobs, and I am truly burnt out. Although I haven't worked a full 40 hour week every week this summer, this last month was enough working the next couple of summers.
Right now, I feel like I do one thing, and then five more "to do's" are added to the list. I really can't keep up. I have only two full days left till I move to Goshen and I'm not sure if I'm prepared yet. I have been trying to balance it all out, trying my best to put the important things first ((like spending time with family, appreciating good moments, getting more sleep))..most the time it doesn't work out.
And goodbyes? How does that work.. I don't ever think that you can ever spend enough time with the ones you care about.
I'm really going to miss people.
Right now, I feel like I do one thing, and then five more "to do's" are added to the list. I really can't keep up. I have only two full days left till I move to Goshen and I'm not sure if I'm prepared yet. I have been trying to balance it all out, trying my best to put the important things first ((like spending time with family, appreciating good moments, getting more sleep))..most the time it doesn't work out.
And goodbyes? How does that work.. I don't ever think that you can ever spend enough time with the ones you care about.
I'm really going to miss people.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
The Introduction of Many..
This is the first of many blogs..
I'm starting a new year at Goshen College, away from a lot of life at home, so this is me trying to give (those who want to know) the incite of my life in college. I feel like I've tried to catch people up with whats new in life at different moments, but I don't think that I've been quite as successful as hoped.. there just isn't enough time in the world for it all. So for the times that I won't be able to relay my life in the future; this is my solution.
I soak up the support and love that everyone is and has been giving me. I am very thankful for the family and friends I have. I want everyone to be included in this time, I want everyone to take in what I'm taking in; no matter how many miles inbetween.
..I thank you for taking your time out to read and discover more about me.
I'm starting a new year at Goshen College, away from a lot of life at home, so this is me trying to give (those who want to know) the incite of my life in college. I feel like I've tried to catch people up with whats new in life at different moments, but I don't think that I've been quite as successful as hoped.. there just isn't enough time in the world for it all. So for the times that I won't be able to relay my life in the future; this is my solution.
I soak up the support and love that everyone is and has been giving me. I am very thankful for the family and friends I have. I want everyone to be included in this time, I want everyone to take in what I'm taking in; no matter how many miles inbetween.
..I thank you for taking your time out to read and discover more about me.
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