My day

I think that what drives me crazy the most is feeling like I can't control my emotions. My feelings just consume me. I have all these feelings stuffed inside, yet, sorta empty. It turns the extroverted person I am into someone introverted.

I currently have no motivation...actually, this isn't current, this is reoccurring. I've felt fatigued, unmotivated and super out of it for days. I can't figure out if its the medication or just an "out of sync" phase. Whatever it is, I'm annoyed.



"Open up the curtains and let the sunlight in
I've been left inside with my mindseye"

More real & more accurate.

I haven't been keeping up with this blog at all...and, I've decided it's been entirely too general. Boo on all of that. I want to be honest now. I want to be more open and follow through everyday. From now on I'm sharing all thoughts. I mean, who follows this thing anyway? I think it's really for my own benefit.
As of today, I have been taking an antidepressant for a week now. I think it's going pretty well. I was opposed to medicine for so long, but I think that I've done all that I am capable of doing to help fix myself. My biggest improvements have been:
-drinking more water
-working out (at least 3 times a week)
-figuring out where all of my feelings are coming from
-staying on a consistent schedule
-getting more sleep
-taking vitamins B, D, C and a multi
-admit to my depression/problems

I'd have to say these are great things..especially because I've never done them before. I think that the last one of the list is the biggest. People are so scared to fail and scared of their own issues. I think that's why its the most important step, it's the hardest one.

It's about time..

First week of college. Phew! What a freakin week. Started moving my stuff in on Friday, moved in by Sunday, and started classes Wednesday. By the end of the week I was through my classes.. meeting new people AND, finding stray cats.
...Okay, A cat. The cutest thing in the world really. We named her Bella. I found her underneath an SUV. She was limping and her tail was super dirty. I brought her in our room and Menan says "Can we keep her???". I was so there with her, but, being that there is no pets allowed..this wouldn't have worked. So? We kept her for a night, she pooped everywhere, and then we found her a home. Worked out quite nicely : )

Anyways.. classes are great. This semester I am taking photo comm, oral comm, wellness, asl, and....the wonderful english linguistics. my fav. ...actually not too bad, just a very intense class.

SOON, I will have pictures posted up of the four of us roomies! We're hoping to take a "quad" family picture. So far it's been great with the four of us. We get along well and we are constantly doing things together. Tonight was movie night. We watched (Katy Perry's favorite movie apparently..) "Lolita", a disgusting movie. I would never recommend it. But, a fun time as always with the girls.

Also, just started my flickr.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/angelicakatherine/

...Post more soon. But for now, goodnight.

Hello Summer.

So, I just realized it was summer..like, yesterday. I think its weird: every year it hits me at the last minute and I see all of these things I should have done. So now? ..I'm making a list. I've honestly done quite a few things I've been wanting to do, and its been nice, even though every time someone asks what I've been up to I say nothing. I realize that must mean I'm probably really doing nothing, but don't believe what I say; I'm doing something.

So far I have painted my room...reorganized my stuff..painted a porch..spent time with family...babysat...started interning for an Interpreting company..it's all been really fun.

What I still want to do?
-completely clean out my car
-sew like a madman
-spend a day in chicago
-buy a canon rebel
-cook a few times with grandma
-go to a cheap concert
-...oh, and discovering extra coolness
.... the list is to be continued.

My recent photography

Okay, so I'm ready to update this thing..

It's been a good few months now and a ton has happened, yet I have failed to post anything on my own blog! Geesh..
My best friend just got married Friday night and WOW was that craAzy weird. She looked beautiful and I am so happy for her. It was a gorgeous night.

Since the summer has started I have painted my room, cleaned out my closet, and starting a few sewing projects. I am hoping to create some pretty unique things this summer as well as stitch up a few random pieces of clothing needing fixed. During the school year I never really had the chance to do much with the hobbies that I enjoy, like photography or sewing. I missed that. I missed being creative, but I never really had much energy for it after being at work and school.

On the weekends I go up to Goshen to work at the salon and during the week, I am here, in Fort Wayne. It's a lot of fun because I don't really have a job. So far I have babysatt, cut hair and soon I will be housesitting. It's been good to have a flexible week and pick up oddjobs around. I think its what I've needed...

Soon I will be starting to help out a group of interpreters in the Fort Wayne area with any job that they have. I think that it'll be important for me to stay involved and practicing my ASL throughout the summer if I want to stay committed to that major.